One of the constants in life always facing us, regardless of race, creed or gender is the need to move forward with ones life, regardless of the challenges or hurdles facing us.
Strangely enough, though I moved out of my apartment today, and for the time being I am homeless, I find myself in a surprisingly good mood.
Maybe it's because for the first time in a long while, I am no longer in a difficult situation with limited options, and essentially I am starting with a clean slate.
I should be upset that I was forced to choose between walking away from continuing treatment and walking away from everything I was working towards (see http://www.nunatsiaqonline.ca/stories/article/65674trans_woman_files_human_rights_complaint_against_nunavut/) and surprisingly I chose continuing treatment and the betterment of myself.
I truly thought that I would do whatever it takes to build a life for myself in Kugluktuk, but it turns out I have begun to care more about embracing my gender identity, and everything it means to be myself. Though I find myself deprived of much of the material goods I had, I also find myself with no shortage of love and support from my friends and family.
It may be cliche, but I am much happier moving forward in my life when I have such great love and support, and I wish I could give everyone going through any challenges in their life the same, knowing how it changes and strengthens those who are experiencing such pain and suffering without it.
I have been at square one many times before, but this is the first time I am at square one, and looking forward to the future with a smile on my face.
If I could wish for one thing, it would be that anyone who would, would extend their love and support to all they know, and just be there for them. It won't change the world, it won't help them, but it might change their world knowing someone cares.
I never had such ease in my life when it comes to making friends as I do now, and I wish those who have been unfortunate enough to lose the love and support of friends and family realize that the Creator has made it so it is out there, available for the asking.
In everything I have done, I have failed to maker the world a better place, but now I, and those I know, are making it better for us.